Sometimes life seems to slap you in the face. Unsure of what to do next I find myself sitting in the cloud of memories of the “good ole days”. I would say that captures the adventure I have been on in the past two weeks. A good solid adventure I am all up for, but I can say that these two weeks I felt confused, alone, and unsure of so much lately.
“A hope deferred makes a heart sick” I ponder this. The conclusion that I find myself at is one of sickness. A sickness that is deeper than a cold or flu. The sickness that I suffer is that of the soul. A soul with hope deferred. My heart screams at me to say or do the right thing concerning what goes on around me. I have the power to change my situation, but do I? A majority of times I find myself to lethargic to actually get up and do it!
At this point I want to end the blog, but as Disney has taught us there is a happy ever after…
Today I do not see it. Tomorrow also. But I look to the day today and see that I made it through. Survival is what I thought I was trying, but I find myself getting more confident in what troubles beset me. This slow walk that turns into a jog, challenges me to go higher and deeper.
How and who do I find this confidence? Family? My boyfriend? My work or education?
No church nor any person who works there.
I look to the “God of this city, the King of these people, the Lord of this nation”
I am reminded that it is not about me, it’s about others. How can I reach others?
My focus is back on track.
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